To My Dear Friend (The One I Never Talk To)

To my Dear Friend (The One I Never Talk To),

You know who you are. You do, don’t you? I mean, I think you do. I hope you do.

You see, I think about you all time. Truly, you are on my mind as if we never moved apart or lost touch. I worry about you. I still talk about you. Tell stories about our time together. Brag about all you’ve accomplished. Every time I see your face pop up in my newsfeed -- or better yet -- I hear your voice telling a funny story on Snapchat, I think, “Isn’t she the greatest? I am so lucky she is my friend. So lucky I know her.”

I am one of your fans, your cheerleaders. You inspire me. I think you are amazing. I want to call you. I know if I did it would be easy. We clicked right away. Talking is easy for us. You always knew me, understood me -- the real me. But you’re busy, and I’m busy. Our lives are moving so fast. I don’t want to intrude. I’ll call tomorrow. I feel like we would need hours to catch up, and I would feel bad if I only have 20 minutes. You get it. You know I care about you. You know how badass I think you are. You do, don’t you? I mean, I think you do. I hope you do.

Last time I saw you it was magical. My face and abs hurt from smiling and laughing so much. It was like not a day had passed. It had been months or was it a year since we last got together? I honestly couldn’t tell. I remembered exactly why you are so special to me. How could I have let that much time pass? How did we lose touch? I won’t let it happen again, I thought. This time, it will be different. You are the kind of friend I know I can count on. Those kinds of friends are special. You want greatness for me. I want greatness for you. It’s crazy how much we both have grown and changed over the years --- I’d still pick you as a friend today. It’s no mystery why we connected in the first place. Your happiness brings me joy. I celebrate your success. I hurt in your times of sadness. I want to make sure I am there to tell you these things this time around. But you know that. You do, don’t you? I mean, I think you do. I hope you do.

Somehow it happened again. A week went by. Then a month. Then two. It has been a while since we talked. I am embarrassed. You mean more to me than it seems. So I want you to know that while we may not talk, I am thinking of you, cheering you on, loving you, my dear friend. I’m not giving up. In fact, I am going to try harder. To reach out. To write when I can’t call -- or text -- or snap -- or whatever. I’m just going to do a better job of staying in touch. Of letting you know I care and think you are a total rockstar that never ceases to impress me. I will make sure you know, without question, just how important you still are to me.

xoxo,

Your Forever Friend